Saturday, January 18, 2014



Well I thought it was about time to share something that has been on my heart for awhile now.  I did a 6ish day of fasting & praying that ended today and I can really say that I saw breakthrough. Now just because I say I just ended the fasting & praying, I actually will keep away from FB/Instagram for the next few weeks.

I find that FB/Instagram keep me plugged to my laptop/cell phone  These past 6 days I've found myself playing with Elanie more and relaxing on the couch with hubby after dinner till it's time to put Elanie to bed.  I found myself before this fast & praying on my laptop/cell phone all day long browsing thru FB and not getting any chores done, not paying attention to Elanie, dinner being a bit later than expected, and just feeling blah.  I get consumed really easy and get too plugged into all types of social media.

I've also noticed TIME! I have time to read the Bible, read Christian books, sit and write in my journal, draw in my journal, praying for others during my prayer time and not rushing thru my prayers, cleaning, and just enjoying the TIME.

The other day I was searching on Pinterest and I noticed a link to "A Cranky Wife." WHOA! It was like it read "This is for Melanie Rodriguez." {lol} I know we aren't perfect as wives, mothers, etc... {I am being raw and open here} My heart has been wanting to spill these words out on here for some months now. Just never knew how to express it till now. There is always a time for everything right?! I know I am not the only one, but why is it that we feel we are the only ones? Well cause in the moment we beat ourselves up and try and control our circumstances when truly there is a Father who cares and already  knows our hearts.  That's when we need to call out to our Abba Father! When we are feeling that crankiness, when we are feeling that we are the only ones going thru a tough time, when you feel like your the worst wife or parent. We can NOT beat ourselves up.

For a few months now, Elanie has been asking me a question that every time she asks me I cringe. Her question to me when I am upset {which is usually when I am cranky or when she tests me}is "Mommy are you happy, sad, or mad?"  Of course what I want to answer to her is a soap box but poor thing she is only 3-years-old.  Yes only 3! How does a 3-year-old know when her mommy is upset? Just by her asking me that shows me that I am always being cranky.  This brings me back to being on my laptop/cell phone all day.  When I am on my social media I don't want to be bothered.  Well when you have a 3-year-old you better pay attention. So with these past 6 days I have learned what is more important.  I can actually say I don't even miss FB/Instagram.

Fasting & praying is not easy guys! My coffee was my main fast. It was hard because the mornings are chilly and who doesn't want a nice cup of coffee/tea?!

Here I leave you with some pictures of my baby girl that I am so proud of. I want to raise her to not be cranky, upset, or sad. I want her to learn how to become a woman of God and press forward in life and not let circumstances get the best of her.  I received some BREAKTHROUGH and still receiving anything and everything God wants me to see! 

Love ya'll,

 {it's fun learning how to use my new camera ;}

Monday, January 6, 2014

Sunday, January 5, 2014

My 2014 Word

For the year 2013 and a few years before that I felt that my {joy} was taken from me. I do believe that the enemy is out to kill, steal, and destroy those who are trying to follow Christ. I feel I let the enemy win these past couple of years and he tried to kill, steal, and destroy my {joy}. With that being said my word for 2014 is {JOY}!

This New Year I have set a few goals that I would like to accomplish. I have always been one to start something and never finish it out. Like the 365 day photos, etc… What I am really hoping for is a hunger for the Lord like never before, reading His Word daily, praying daily, and to be more Christ-like.

Here are some of my goals:
1.  Reading the Word in 365 days with the Olive Tree Bible Study App. So far I’ve read Genesis 1-3, Matthew 1-3, Ezra 1-3, and Acts 1-3.
2.  Praying daily. There are times where I am so caught up with what I don’t have, problems in my life, and many other things that I don’t pray it all out. When I do I feel some peace and am able to go about my day.
3.  Journaling my daily thoughts, prayers, any verses I see that speak to my heart, and also bringing some of my journaling onto here, my blog.
4.  Wake up every morning right before hubby leaves for work to hand him over some breakfast and after he leaves it’s my time with my Savior.
5.  Being a better wife & mother. Tending to their needs a little more and staying away from social media while we are home or out as a family.
6.  After having my time with my Savior, my plan is to get ready as if I am going somewhere. {since I am a SAHM there are many days that I don’t want to even brush my teeth (being real now!)}
7.  Finish my Medical Transcription Certificate course. {finishing up my last course before my externship}
8.  Read at least 1 book a month. {Christian based}
9.  Learn to paint on canvas and not feel as if I am not good enough.
10.  Learn to budget better and save money.
11.  Try and stay organized.
12.  Begin a 365 day afghan. By the time this year is up I will have a HUGE afghan ;)
13.  BE {JOY}FUL at all times!

That’s all I have for right now. There is a lot more stirring in my head but these are the ones I actually had written down in December.  

What are some of your goals/resolutions/bucket list? Share them here!

“I have told you these things so that you will be filled with my joy.  Yes, your joy will overflow!” John 15:11

This verse stirred my heart. May my joy and your joy overflow in Jesus Christ name, Amen!


Thursday, January 2, 2014

Thankful Thursday & Happy New Year

Today is Thursday and it's Thankful Thursday! I am linking up again for the 2nd time with Sarah @The Fontenot Four.
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I am hoping that this is my beginning to blog weekly and hoping to stick to it as I feel writing everything out will help in my life.

Things I am thankful for:

*How God never fails me even when I fail Him

*New beginnings

*My hubby

*My family & friends

*Our health

*Our home

*The wisdom & knowledge to budgeting

*Online friends *Sarah ;)

*Elanie's passion of tapping, ballet, and dance

*To be a stay-at-home mom (In just less than a year she will begin school) ;(

*The JOY that I am receiving (for the past few years I've felt the enemy has taken my joy)

*So much more... be still my heart <3

Thank you Sarah for staying on top of Thankful Thursday! I am hoping I can begin this weekly ;)

Also, Happy New Year to all ;) May this year be a blessing to all!



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